Birds of a feather...

It's interesting how different two lives can be. Sometimes you end up with "friends" (I'll use that term loosely) who can't even begin to understand our lives. These are people that you talk to and laugh with from time to time, but often, just underneath the surface, there is a tension there. In alot of conversations you feel like they really don't "get you".

I must admit, my life is a bit different than most. I was married once, now divorced. I have one son. I'm only 36, but most times, I guess I carry myself like I'm atleast 46. I don't go out to clubs; I don't date. I'm in school full time and my life centers around that and my son. I can't honestly say that that's by choice though.

I've spent alot of time trying to make friends; trying to be like the "normal" people. There was a time in my life when I was truly addicted to other people's approval. Not anymore. Eventhough God has helped me overcome my approval addiction (it's a work in progress), I am still alone. I've talked to God about this on numerous occasions, but am at peace with it since I know He will provide "divine connections" when the time is right.

People think they know all about me, since from the outside, I seem very plain. No one knows my depth. No one in my family and certainly not anyone I call "friend". Only God knows. And for now, that's ok. I will wait on Him to send people into my life who can truly appreciate the special and unique person I am. I always marvel at this in others, but it's hard to find anyone who can appreciate it in me.