I.Will.Never.Go.Back.

I had some wonderful comments on my last post about being Tired of Wanting. I know that God has great things in store for me! Do you ever sit around and wonder "When, God when?". Well, I do! ALL THE TIME! But I know that even if it takes 20 years, I will NOT GO BACK!

When you get tired of waiting on God and turn back, I believe that's a deathly error. I know what my life was like a few years ago. I know what kinds of people I had in my life. I know what kinds of things I was doing and I KNOW what kind of misery I felt inside daily.

GO BACK? Are you kidding?! Me trusting God and living from faith to faith is faith is better ANY DAY than how things used to be! It may have looked better on the outside (and it was), but the misery and depression are not worth looking back! Not at all!

Even though I have only online friends (love yall!), no car (had one, love you Vanyce!), no nice apt complex (I hate this one!), and no job (hated that too!), my life is SO much better now!!LOL

I know it doesn't seem like it would be, but I have a peace that I never knew back then. Before, it was me trying to make everything happen and failing miserably! I was a people pleaser and couldn't say no to anyone! I needed every one's approval to feel good about myself. When my friends mistreated me, It made me feel like I wasn't good enough to have them for friends!

Isn't it amazing the lies you will believe from the devil?!!! God has opened my eyes and I thank Him! He is my everything and I will Never. Go. Back. I may make mistakes and I may gripe from time to time, but that's why He gave me my online friends!: To keep me in line!!!