Let me be really honest and say that I wasn't all that upset when Mel couldn't ride that old bike anymore. I HATED him going out with his bike. I was always SO afraid of someone taking it from him. Some of the people around here don't mind taking what you've got if they want it.
Mel kept asking for a new bike and I even told him that I'd get him one when we moved. Well...we didn't move and we're still here..he kept asking for a bike.
SO................me and my nieces got together and got him a bike for Christmas. It's a really nice looking Next bike and he loves it. Here is the problem: I HATE LETTING HIM OUT WITH IT. I know what you're gonna say! He's out with it right now, ok? I just hate it. I'm afraid that someone is gonna take it and then he's gonna be devastated. I've already explained to him that if someone takes it from him, I will NOT allow it to be replaced until we move up out of here!
I know this may sound ridiculous to some of you, but us living here affects our lives in SO many ways! You have NO idea. I know people are tired of hearing me talk about where I live, but I can't wait to live in a normal place and be around people who value life and their belongings. When you live around people who respect their surroundings and other people you really take it for granted. It's just normal...but here....it's NOT normal. The "norm" here is tragic.
God knows my heart. I try not to limit my son too much because of other people, but sometimes it can't be helped. When, Lord when?
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I can imagine why you are afraid that someone will take his bike. Does he have one of those super thikc locks? Can he bring it into your place at whenever he is home? Your fears are real. I would be worried too. My bike was stolen when I was a kid and I was in a safe little town. I was heartbroken. Read to him your post and what everyone else writes. Maybe he will "get it" and be a little more prepared if something bad does happen. I will say a little prayer for Mel and his bike.
Oh Rachel, I don't think it is crazy at all! I would be scared out of my mind to let him out of that house!!!! Girl, I am praying God removes you fast!!!!
We had this same issue when we moved here where we live too, I did not think it was going to be this bad but the Lord has worked it out. We started doing outreach in the neighborhood and though we have only reached a few people, we have gained some respect and they are not as bad as they were before.
We are known as the Christian people - or the minister and his wife. I feel you on the moving thing...yet as my hubby tells me when I start talking about moving...God has us where we are in our lives for a reason...so I will be lifting you up in prayer that whatever reason, lesson or if just for the season that the Lord will bring you peace in the area that you are in and protect your son and yourself from all hurt harm and danger - hey that is what God is good at - protecting His children - you will be in my prayers! God Bless!
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I can feel the pain and understand the frustration. It's only normal that you feel that way because you care about your son.
I pray that the time come soon for you to leave and we will all rejoice with you.
Myriam
I do realize that I have to accept where I live before God will move me and I'm gonna be honest, I think I have accepted it. I don't like it and I haven't stepped out in front of God to get out of here. I've resigned myself to waiting on Him so isn't that accepting it?
God, you know my heart. I don't want to do anything that will make my stay here longer. Please show me if I'm holding up my own progress.
Sister Alissa Lynne found much better words to express what I was trying to say. But before I read her comment, I had already sent you an e-mail with my very long one. So check your e-mails. :-)
Rachel, if there are four things I have learned in my walk with the Lord it is patience, hope, faith and trust. God does things in His own timing. When He does this He is teaching us patience. We must trust that He will indeed answer our prayers. We must believe that He has already worked it out for us. Each and everyday we keep home alive that this is the day that the prayer will be answered. This is how I make it through when I have prayed for something. It makes the waiting so much easier. I hope this helps you my friend. Everyday say this is the day that I am going to move. When it finally happens oh what joy will fill your soul and all glory to our Lord and Savior for it happening. Stay strong my friend.
I'm sorry you have to deal with these issues. Parenthood is hard enough without the extra fears.
I kind of know how you feel. I am not in a dangerous area. But I do not like where we live for various reasons. I have to keep reminding myself that God has me here for a reason. I am also trying to learn the secret of contentment. It is a hard lesson to learn.
But it's another thing altogether when you don't feel safe letting your son out with his bike. I pray that God will keep him safe and that He will provide the opportunity for you to move.
I have seen you around and wanted to come check out your blog. I hope you enjoy the rest of your week!
Man. I don't know where you live but I recall a good friend living in a really dicey area and when I visited her, just the difference I felt there - the feeling that people were in a mental prison and couldn't see past their own imposed limits. It drove me nuts. She's a Christian and I know she was bringing light to the place but still, for the safety of her and her 3 kids I wanted her out. I wanted the generational curse to end. She's out but we've lost touch. I hope she is well and you find a place of peace as well - wherever you are.
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