Mel's Big Couple emailed me and asked to take him to a Spray Park today. He would really like this and it just got me to thinking how much I'd love to be able to do these kinds of things with my son. I'm very thankful to God for his Big Couple. They are really sweet people. It just breaks my heart that I can't do some of these kinds of things with him.
You can't get everywhere on a train or a bus and somethings you wouldn't want to do on a train or bus. I don't always have the money either. Sometimes I just hurt. I want his life to be full of fun memories. He always says to me after having a good time with his Big Couple: I wish we could take you with us sometimes. I just remind him that this is all for him and that one day we'll get to do some fun stuff together.
I thank you Lord that Mel gets to get out and do things. Thank you for the people you've put in his life who care about him. I know that my existence here is not my only future. I know that things will not always remain the same. Help me to hold on.
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3 comments:
You are in my prayers.
I know how it is when you want to do so many things with your children. I get that feeling as well but then I make myself remember all the things that I am able to do with them. Children are children, they love us not matter what we buy them or where we take them. The things they will remember most, is the hug when they get when they get home from school, the smile we give them when they do something nice for us or just sitting and talking with them. Mel is not telling you that he wish you could go because he wants you to spend the money, he wants you to go because you are his mother and he just wants to share with you and wants you to be happy just as he is. We parents, give ourselves such a bad rap sometimes:) You are doing a good job, the fact that fact that you made it possible for Mel to get out is a big deal. Even if you cannot take him, you found some people that can help you. It is all about exposing our children and doing the best for them. I know it is hard, there are a lot of things that I cannot do for my kids but I know that they are happy, healthy and having a good life.
Rachel,
I understand what you mean. I have been feeling the same way lately about my kids and my life in general. I feel that life has been throwing one thing after another at me and my family ever since last May. When it rains, it pours. And it has definitely been pouring. I have been asking God to just help me hold on too.
I'm sorry you are struggling. Just know you are not alone. It helps me to know others struggle with similar things I do. Thanks for posting this. Some Christians seem to never want to discuss anything that is troubling them, but to me it is encouraging to be able to share burdens.
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